The day that I have been waiting for is finally here! Tomorrow I will be boarding the plane and leaving. In a way I will not be coming back. My body will, but I will be different. The person that I have been all my life will pass away in Lima, Peru and I will come home different... a good different. Of course I will come home with the some of the same qualities. I will still love music and I will still be obnoxious and I still be really, really A.D.D., and I will still make stupid mistakes, but I am praying that the self-centeredness that captivates me will be wiped out, and the non-compassionate side of me will be replaced with compassion.
I am not going to lie and tell you I am not scared and that I am completely excited because that is not the truth. I am excited, but I am so nervous my stomach is getting upset and I am so scared! Change is uncomfortable. I am stepping away from everything I once knew and into a whole new life style... It's scary! And although I believe that this is going to be a good change, I also know that it is going to be a heartbreaking change, it is not going to be comfortable to go through this, but that is the way God works most of the time... at least in my life.
I am so humbled by this oportunity, I want to fall on my face before God. Out of all the people in the world that are way better than me, he sends me... a A.D.D., teenage girl with many more unlisted problems. I don't understand, but I don't think I am supposed to. I know I am not any more special to God than anyone else though and this adventure he is sending me on is not more special than any other adventure he sends others on. It's just different just like people are all different. In other words, God has a special plan for everyone's lives no matter who they are and what they have done. It's scary at times, so scary that you feel sick to the stomach, but it will be an amazing thing. You just have to be willing to step out of that comfort zone and maybe get a little dirty.
Love you guys! :)
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